Day 5 & 6

Hey there everyone!! I am combining days five and six because I didn't post yesterdays blog, sorry:( Anyways yesterday went great, I had my two healthy meal shakes as well as tea. Had fruit and some protein for a snack. I also did the second day of the C25k. It was the same routine as the first day but I only had to skip one run instead of two. I can already tell the difference in my body shape since I have been doing the circular nutrition and running. I haven't lost a dress size yet but I am close, and the clothes that I do have fit much better then they did just a few weeks ago.

I have noticed a change in my attitude as well. I haven't looked in the mirror and found something wrong with my appearance. Just a few weeks ago that was all that I could do was nit pick at myself and hope that people were not looking at me and going gosh she doesn't look to great. Now I've noticed that I am walking around with more confidence and hoping that people will look at me and notice that I have lost something. Some actually did say to me at work today that I do look skinnier so that really boosted my confidence and makes everything that I am doing just that much more worth it.

Tonight my exercise sidekick is going to be gone at a friends house so I am going to have to do it on my own. I think I will swim some laps since tomorrow I have to do the C25k. I realized that I feel so much better when I am running but man it makes me so tired the next day! I never realized just how out of shape I truly was.

Well I am going to go. I will write tomorrow. I'm hoping to have at least lost a couple of more pounds by this sunday! So wish me luck!!

Day 4

First and for most I wanted to say HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!! I hope that everyone is having a great and safe holiday today! I am having a great day so far. I weighed in for our official weigh in at the house (if i haven't explained everyone in my house is on a diet just not the same one as I am) and I weighed in at 155.4. I was so excited, and felt that all the hard work I have done so far is really paying off.

I will say though that one of the downsides to any diet I have realized is that no matter how hard I try I am still craving food that I can't have. I haven't given in, I just tell myself how bad it makes me feel and that I will regret it. But it does get very annoying having these cravings. I am at a point where I just wish they would go away! It is sad how the stuff that we eat today is so addicting, it is almost like a drug. But I am working hard on just sticking to everything because I know that in the end the results and being healthy for the first time in my life will be worth it.

Well today's blog won't be that long because it is a holiday, but I will write again tomorrow:)

Day 3

Today is only the beginning of the day, but I had so very exciting news that I wanted to write about, I weighed myself this morning and I weight 156.4 I am excited!! One more pound and I will have lost five pounds. I am so excited for everything. I am proud of myself for losing even this much, it has been at least a year since I have weighed 156!!! This is motivating me even more to continue with everything that I am doing because the reward is going to be so worth it. I want to be able to go to the Dew Tour and take pictures and say "wow I look really great in these photos I am so proud of myself." Instead of saying "oh my gosh I hate all of these pictures, I wish I would have lost the weight."

I talked to Holly again today, and she is really the best coach I could ask for. She is great at explaining what needs to be done and how to do things. And makes you realize that the smallest changes could mean all the difference in your weight loss. She even gave me a great quote that I am going to keep playing over and over in my head. " You are beautiful and you are thin!" To me this is the greatest quote ever. I always catch myself looking at myself and thinking "man I don't even see a five pound weight loss shouldn't I look a lot different by now?" And it really just gets you down and frustrated and just figuring you should go back to what you where doing before and give up. But by saying this to yourself it makes you feel more confident and able to focus on the positive changes in your body.

I have been progressively writing this today, and it is now finally 9 at night. I went and worked out tonight. I started this program called C25k(click the link for more information) and it basically takes you from a couch potato to being able to run a 5k marathon. I pushed myself through this work out., and let me tell you while it was very hard I felt so accomplished after wards. I know that this is going to make my weight loss go even faster and I am going to get healthier along the way. This is now a lifestyle change for me, I don't ever want to have to do this again I want to get healthy and stay healthy. We should no longer call anything a diet, but a lifestyle change because when we say diet we dread it and we think once we get where we want we can go back to the way that we where, but that is not the case at all.

We just need to tell ourselves I want to make this change in my life, I want to be healthy, I want to feel better inside and out, I don't want to go back to feeling the way I do now, I don't want to look at myself and find things wrong with myself. These are all things that I want to throw away and begin a new life with a new me.

I want more and more people to feel and see the same vision. Think of it this way, we have one life to live so we need to cherish it. Is it really worth killing ourselves for food that only tastes good for 10 minutes or so while we eat it? Or would we rather see our kids and grandchildren grow up and be able to do things with them longer and do things with them longer because we are healthy. I don't want to grow old and be overweight and have a lot of health problems, I want to enjoy my entire life and I want everyone to feel the same way. Or find a goal within themselves to become healthy and fit.

I hope that I am not being mean or too blunt, I just want people to want to be healthy. Get Americans back to where they used to be skinny and healthy. Get out and do activity's and spending time with family playing tennis or going for a walk. Every little bit will count as Holly has told me and I truly believe that.

Day Two

Hey there everyone...or should I say myself since no one has read my blog yet lol...I have been doing pretty good today. I had my protein shake in the morning and then some fruit and cheese for snacks and protein for dinner. I weighed myself and I now weight 157.2 so I have almost lost four pounds!! I am so excited! It totally gave me a lot more motivation seeing that on the scale because I have only ever gotten to 158 and given up and went back to the way that I was. I keep looking at this as each pound I lose the sooner that I can say goodbye to being 160 pounds and the closer I am to being 150 and then 140 and then finally 130.

I honestly can't wait to even be 155 I just know that I have made a small accomplishment and am reaching my goal:) I hope to keep writing positive things about my weight gain as the days go on. As far as other things in my life I have came to a realization about somethings and realize that I need to stop trying to please other people and focus on what is going to make me happy, and honestly the decision that I could end up making really scares me. I don't really want to go into details at the moment but I know that it could really help me. Well I am going to go for tonight. I will write again tomorrow. Have a great night and Happy Fourth of July everyone!

Day 1

I have officially decided to start a blog about losing weight. This has been a complete struggle for me to do, and people can throw at me all they want that atleast I haven't been dealing with it my whole life, but that does not matter I am dealing with it now. Up until two years ago I weight maximum of 120 pounds, and had aspired to be a model. Granted then I ate the same as I do now just not as much or as often. Then from 2008 until the present I have put on 40 pounds, and am now trying to lose it. No matter how much I try and eat right the weight still was not coming off. So I know now the biggest issue is not enough exercise which we all know is not that much fun. But I know that it needs to be done. It wasn't until a few weeks ago when I talked to Holly that I honestly was going to give up hope.

She introduced me to a great cellular nutrition program that she has been using and has great results. I just started this program a few weeks ago and have lost a few inches and a few pounds. I was just talking with her on the phone and explaining my frustrations about not loosing the weight fast enough, and she is going to help me with a plan to get me back to where I was at 120 pounds. I am hoping to loose at least 20 pounds before I attend the Dew Tour in October and this blog will take you through my journey to see that I actually make it or at least come close.

This blog will be about everything that I go through and my feelings and everything in between. I hope that I can inspire people to lose weight even if the amount of weight is not that much. Or just get healthy even if you have no weight to lose. I want to do this for people like Holly has done for me. To be able to give people hope and realize that this isn't really a diet but it is a lifestyle change. It took me awhile to realize this but now that I do, it makes things a lot easier to cope with. The picture below is me now... hopefully in a month I will be able to show a picture that shows me a little bit smaller.